Happy Tuesday Everyone! It’s been a while since I have posted here. In fact, I almost forgot my login when I tried to get back in today. There are a few good reasons for my absence but the main one is because I lost my dad in May. If you follow me on social media, you probably heard me talk about it already. It was really sudden to the point I have not been able to say goodbye (do we ever?) This is the closest family member I’ve lost and nothing could have prepared me for what I was about to go through. The days that followed were a bit of a blur but I know I was shocked, numb, sad, and at times angry at God. It felt like I lost a part of myself.
See, I have never seen my dad sick, even as he got older. In fact, he always took pride in the fact that he was healthy so for him to go this way was not something that I ever imagined. What made it even worse is that I had not seen him in years. I have postponed my trip to go home in Mali many times and now I had to go bury him. From the day I’ve gotten the news life has never been the same. I am still imagining all the scenarios in my head of what If I had done this or took that ticket to go home.
If you ever lost someone before, you must know that grief never really goes away, but it changes over time. Some days are better than others so I am allowing myself to go through it. There is less crying now and more smiling when I speak with people that knew him or remind myself of the good times. I wish I can tell you how to cope with the loss of a parent but I can’t because have yet to figure it out. What I can do however is to tell you to not spend time on little things that really do not matter, hug those you love a little harder, be grateful every day you wake up because tomorrow is never promised. It really isn’t.
Thank you for all the lovely messages. I know I have yet to meet most of you in real life but it felt good to read your messages of support. Continue to keep my family in your prayers.
I try not to talk about the passing of my dad online much because just like everything in my life I want to grieve privately. This platform from the beginning has always been able keeping everything light, happy and promise to keep it that way.
Posting will resume sooner than you think. In fact, within the last few weeks, I have created a lot of content that may or may not make it to the blog. Feel free to follow me on Instagram to keep up with all the updates.
Until next time friend!
